Down, down, steadily down I go,
my legs carrying me closer to your
This way and that way, upways and
backways my eyes flutter
. Bump bump…
Those bumps in my chest become
lumps in my neck because
. I saw you again today.
Like my wish to a genie you appeared in
the most inopportune way,
. But I got to see you.
Over and over my mantra cycled through
my brain cavities, dashing, thrashing,
Like a wildfire, every dendrite branch is
. I didn’t ask for
Up and up your hair like the face of a
mountain I never got to climb
. I felt them twitch.
Your eyes find me,
. (do they?)
but up and up you climb to your
horse so high.
. I’m not good enough for you.
The skin over yours, the one I’d hoped
you’d peel for me,
stays in place and covers your shoulders.
. I wanted to
. hold them.
Your eyes find me, but you don’t see me.
. I see you.
. I miss you.
. I didn’t ask for this.
Let me go.
. I was free.
. Why are you here?
Around and about and in and out you’re still so
loud the crowd can’t shroud your
silent shouts or my howling doubts!
. Go away.
. Pull me closer to you.
You may never know, but
. I saw you today. Again.
. And again, you’ve stolen me away.